I'm back

Yesterday was a nightmare Paige won't let me out of her sight even lays on my feet hoping that I won't move or can't move...wrong. The minute I leave there is a screaming match, whenever she can't see me or I move an inch away off she goes. Was talking to my mum on the phone also yesterday and she screamed so I went to a room and closed the door for the whole hour she screamed its been going on for days and now has taken its toll. Feel like I'm a wreck or going to break down. Well I did been bursting into tears I think its the frustration who knows.

Well today she was a gem a different child, someone must've swapped kids during the night as she was nice and happy, Iwas getting to the stage where I was hoping she'd wake at 10 and give me some peace and time with Jackson, but all is well. Sofar so good, lets wait and c what tomorrow holds. Altho not to bad as I will be at work.

Al got home from work at about 3pm. I love fridays as he gets home earlier. We got organised and took the kids to the park gee it was cold but rugged the kids and us up and walked there. We then went to dinner as Al thought I needed time out which was great idea. We went to the Lang Warrin Pub, yum I had steak thought I needed some iron was feeling lathargic thought they might put some zest in my step.

Getting a quote tomorrow on some roller shutters on the kids bedroom windows as we have noisy neighbours and will just give me peace of mind as the kids rooms are at the other end of the house. Jacksons room is further to the back and there is a little road out the back there as we have no neighbours at the back just on either side of us, hope they're not going to cost a fortune, lets keep everything crossed. Will keep you posted on this.

thanks to Sal

Hey Sal Thanks heaps for doing my blog, it looks awesome.

My afternoon was hectic in a way. I went ot the shops to claim medicare and buy Jackson a wallet and some socks, poor little bugger had grown out of his others, Paige was great she loved it there looking around, then came home played with her for a bit and rung Al to see if he could pick Jackson up from kinder as this is what Jackson requested when I dropped him off this morning. Paige just screamed most of the afternoon after coming back from the shopping centre, I organised dinner then cooked it while she still screamed. Finally allen and Jackson arrived home so I then could do dinner in peace.

Jackson had a ball at kinder and he was excited when he got home as he had drawn me a picture , it was gorgeous and had a lot of love in it. Last night I told him not to leave me and he said I'll never leave u mum, I said u will when a girl comes along he said I won't, I yelled to Allen to tape this conversation of ours lol. Then later on he came over to me and said I love you mum and gave me a kiss and cuddle, he is such a lovely little boy hope he never changes.

easy/stressful morning

wednesdays are easy, Jackson is at kinder altho really he is the easy child. But its when Paige is asleep that I actually get some peace, eg thats y i'm on here so early.

Got up I've cleaned the bathrooms and done 2 loads of washing and did the vacuuming last night while Jackson was in the bath, multi tasking and only us girls can do it.

I arrived back from dropping Jackson off this morning to find something in my garage I looked and looked couldn't tell if the bloody huntsman was alive, dead or faking it or actually sleepin, so brave I was got the fly spray tried to spray him, as he was up high I managed to spray him a little as he moved so I grabbed Paige, went across the road to get a neighbour, bloody hell he wasn't answering the door, I knew he was home his truck was there, maybe he was under the shower who knows. So I went to the older lady next door to me as I saw her son's car was there, she answered the door and asked her if she did n't ming killing it for me she didn't mind, so gave her the spray, as I was carrying it around with me lol she climbed a ladder as that is how hight it was and sprayed it for about a minute then squashed it and flicked its body down to the ground, I like to see the body so I know it is actually dead, the poor thing the lady that is not the spider, she climbed down from the ladder and I said thanks so much, I was sweating the whole time thinking if no one is home what the hell am I going to do, after a while I cooled down came inside and continued with my chores. So now I'm looking everywhere I go to see if there are anymore as ppl tell me they come in three's great, one is plenty thank you very much.

Just texting my sister, gosh I miss her heaps still wish she lived here, but she is much happier where she is and that is what counts the most, I guess. It was nice seeing her for a few days just wish it could've been longer, so now saving to get to see her. Rung the South Australian tourist line and they have sent me some brochures so when I have time will flick thru and see what price we are looking at. Mum and dad are going in August for Larns' b'day wish I could be there to see her face when she opens her presents but one in particular. I had been eyeing it off for a while and it was still there a few months later so decided I was meant to get it so I did just have to wrap it and write on the card, just one more thing I have to get then she's all done, this is a practical present, maybe boring a bit to some ppl but she will need it, and the other is a personal present also, don't think she has had this in a very long time, so if Larns ur reading this don't think you'll ever figure them out. LOL

Well Sal if you decide to play with my blog good luck!! I did try changing the spelling in ur blog on the link but couldn't do it so hopefully u have more luck!!

I made it back

Well Paige slept for 3 hours and boy did she need it and so did I just a break from her constantly wingeing, I know she isn't well but it still takes its toll on me. She was quite good this arvo until around 4ish where she started biting the edge of the couch and biting a teething ring, so I gave her a cheese rusk, gee she gave it a work out, but I did notice a new tooth has just come thru so now she has a total of 6, 4 up the top and 2 down the bottom.

Jackson well he was a total angel today, think he understood that all my time was taken with Paige and all he asked for was lunch and me to put certain video's on, then later on something to eat again, he's been such an easy child since day 1, been a real eye opener with Paige, guarantee if she'd been first I think she'd have been the last. People I speak to all say that girls are much harder than boys.

Sal u say I've been tagged, I dunno what u mean and what I'm suppose to do, u have to spell it out to me as I'm still new to this and dunno why I was having problems yesterday with getting on here but somehow it worked today, or I'm blonde....so.....please explain.

I can't wait to get to bed tonight as I'm tired. Didn't get to bed until 11 which is late for me and woken by Jackson at 4am. Dunno how such a little bod can take up so much space, its because he snuggles into me and when I want to move I do then Jackson has rolled into my spot so I'm hanging out, most uncomfortable. He did it the other night so I just went into his bed, very cosy it was a single bed but I was very toasty. He woke me up as he realised I wasn't in my bed with him so he came to his room and found me, so I had to get back in my bed, he's such a gorgeous and lovely temprement boy. I keep telling him to stop growing, and this morning he told me he wants to grow so he can drive my car by himself and go pay bills. One day he'll get there and wish he was small again. Other times he's told me he wants to get big so he can fix things with his tool box just like dad, shows at such a young age they realise who does what in the household.

Well thats it or its all I can think of right now, wish me luck with Paige tomorrow

losing it

Sorry didn't get on yesterday was having probs this end god knows what I do on this thing maybe it could be I have a lot on my plate at the moment, still trying to get Paige well she is maybe not sure but extremely slowly and now she woke up with conjunctivitis, I'm over this, I just burst into tears this morning, I've had quite enough of sickness, so I rung Al he came home for about an hour until things were settled. Husbands they're gr8 things.

I had a shit sleep last night and just got my period yesterday arvo so am emotional and maybe all of this led me to breaking point I dunno, hoping it can only get better.

Well better be off my gorgeous Princess Paige is awake, wish me luck hope its going to be a good and quick arvo, might check in later.