I saw SAL today, the best day I've had in ages!!!

What a wonderful day I had today. Went and saw the best friend anyone can have. Sal I was so excited to see you, u look wonderful, bright and chirpy. If no one knew you and just met you, they'd never have guessed what you have just been thru.

I miss you so much, wish you lived here in Melbourne, just like the good old days. Our kids could play while we watched and just talked. I miss you gorgeous, please please move back here.

You are a very special and wonderful person, don't ever forget that and remember also you have a lot of friends here that love you to no end

I love you and miss you gorgeous

Feeling extremely drained

Well what a time we are having. We went to Sale as this is where my uncle lived. We drove up early Thursday morning. Thursday was the funeral, it was hard, and my sister and I did a eulogy. I've never done one before and 3months ago when my nanna passed away we did one there also, so now have done 2 in 3 months, will this sadness ever end.

Not only did we bury my uncle but my nanna's ashes also all on the one day and all in the same plot at the cemetery, so very draining and very depressing having to busy 2 most beautiful ppl. But they are together, so hopefully they're having a ball somewhere and having a few drinks together, and having a blast.

I miss them both very much, this place will miss them very much and god will me and the family miss them forever. I love u both very much, I'm glad to have known u both for 35 years.

Goodbye for now. Until we meet agian. xxoo

what a shitful day!!!

Fuck, fuck, fuck. My uncle passed away about 1, 1/2 ago, a blessing for him but certainly crappy for all of us. We knew it was coming, but still doesn't make it any easier. I hate life for its cruelity, dunno if thats a word but I don't really give a shit. He is from Sale so that is where he will be buried, my mum has to pick up my nanna's ashes next tuesday, so we will have 2 to bury next week, think we're going to do an over nighter up in sale.

Sal, it was my uncle Max or uncle mackie as we use to call him. He was the lovliest man. He gave me for my 21st birthday a pair of 9ct gold loop earings and u know I still wear them to this day.

I love u uncle...RIP...Hope all the pain and suffering has gone, may u and nanna look after one another xxoo

Life absolutely sux!!!

My dear gorgeous uncle is dying and there is nothing anybody can do about it, and I hate the fact that there are all these shit heads in out jails and on our streets breathing perfectly good air and don't deserve to live. Here is my happy go lucky uncle just waiting to die. He has been in Austin Hospital and today he was moved into palative care, this is where patients go to be kept comfortable but will die. Last friday they took him off all his medication, so now we're just waiting to hear the bad news. He would be frigging mad if he knew what state he was in, he would probably just get a shot gun and take his own life. He just wants to go home but don't think he realises he will never go home again.

He had cancer, so had to take his voice box out so he can't talk, so he was writing everything down, but now he's lost that, we think he's had a lack of oxygen to the brain and that's affected him also. I went and saw him today and he said to me he wants to go home, I red his lips, but he was all over the place, I said to the nurse he needs something, maybe for the pain and some form of sedation, so he can rest as he gets very agitated.

This is why life sucks, and not only that just gone 3months since I lost my nanna, the most beautiful person in the world, so 2 beautiful people in my life taken from us and in a very short space of time, so I hate life at the moment. Why is life so cruel, my uncle is only 69 years young and my gorgeous nanna was 87 but extrememly young at heart.

Nanna I miss you so much, life will never be the same without you. I love you. RIP...

Jackson's very sick

Hi I'm back, it feels like forever since I've been on here. Can't get motivated as my beautiful nanna of 87 passed away on the 4th August. I don't understand how a gorgeous person can be taken away when there are so many low life and dead beats walking our streets and in jail and breathing this air, life sux. Nanna I love u and miss u so much, just wish it was all a dream and I'd wake up and there would be your beautiful smiling face once again.

More bad news. Jackson woke up yesterday not feeling very well. I thought he had a cold, so I left for work, and later when I got home Al said Jackson had been throwing up. He's had a temperature that I just can't get rid of, even panadol isn't working nor neurofen. He layed on the couch for most of the day, and when he woke at about 7am this morning was as bright as a button, but didn't last long he crashed and was laying on the couch again barely able to keep his eyes open. So 8.30 this morning gave him another dose of panadol, then realising he wan't getting better and had a rash all on his body I rung Nurse on Call, they asked me a million questions which i answered, after about 15mins on the phone she suggested to see a doctor within the next 24hrs, and it sounded contagious and to keep Jackson away from kids. So she gave me a few doctors open on a sunday and went to the one up here. He diagnosed Jackson to have fourth disease. The dr gave me som info, this is what it reads: This common problem can be caused by a number of viruses, especially those affecting the bowel. The rash is so much like rubella that it is often misdiagnosed as rubella. However, unlike rubella, it is not concentrated on the face and neck. It mainly occurs on the trunk (body), is usually not itch and often fades after 2 days. It tends to occur in pre school children.

Well I've never seen Jackson this sick, and it says not on face or neck its everywhere. The dr said its highly contagious, and I tolk him I have a 14month old daughter what do I do, he said Jackson needs to be isolated, send him to his grandparents and I said there away well then he said try to keep them far apart,hello how do u do that. Can anyone give me any other info regarding this please. So now we can't go anywhere not to kinder or anywhere where there may be kids.

Hope everyone is well, just seems things are happening to be and I'm feeling down.