Life absolutely sux!!!

My dear gorgeous uncle is dying and there is nothing anybody can do about it, and I hate the fact that there are all these shit heads in out jails and on our streets breathing perfectly good air and don't deserve to live. Here is my happy go lucky uncle just waiting to die. He has been in Austin Hospital and today he was moved into palative care, this is where patients go to be kept comfortable but will die. Last friday they took him off all his medication, so now we're just waiting to hear the bad news. He would be frigging mad if he knew what state he was in, he would probably just get a shot gun and take his own life. He just wants to go home but don't think he realises he will never go home again.

He had cancer, so had to take his voice box out so he can't talk, so he was writing everything down, but now he's lost that, we think he's had a lack of oxygen to the brain and that's affected him also. I went and saw him today and he said to me he wants to go home, I red his lips, but he was all over the place, I said to the nurse he needs something, maybe for the pain and some form of sedation, so he can rest as he gets very agitated.

This is why life sucks, and not only that just gone 3months since I lost my nanna, the most beautiful person in the world, so 2 beautiful people in my life taken from us and in a very short space of time, so I hate life at the moment. Why is life so cruel, my uncle is only 69 years young and my gorgeous nanna was 87 but extrememly young at heart.

Nanna I miss you so much, life will never be the same without you. I love you. RIP...