Feeling extremely drained

Well what a time we are having. We went to Sale as this is where my uncle lived. We drove up early Thursday morning. Thursday was the funeral, it was hard, and my sister and I did a eulogy. I've never done one before and 3months ago when my nanna passed away we did one there also, so now have done 2 in 3 months, will this sadness ever end.

Not only did we bury my uncle but my nanna's ashes also all on the one day and all in the same plot at the cemetery, so very draining and very depressing having to busy 2 most beautiful ppl. But they are together, so hopefully they're having a ball somewhere and having a few drinks together, and having a blast.

I miss them both very much, this place will miss them very much and god will me and the family miss them forever. I love u both very much, I'm glad to have known u both for 35 years.

Goodbye for now. Until we meet agian. xxoo

what a shitful day!!!

Fuck, fuck, fuck. My uncle passed away about 1, 1/2 ago, a blessing for him but certainly crappy for all of us. We knew it was coming, but still doesn't make it any easier. I hate life for its cruelity, dunno if thats a word but I don't really give a shit. He is from Sale so that is where he will be buried, my mum has to pick up my nanna's ashes next tuesday, so we will have 2 to bury next week, think we're going to do an over nighter up in sale.

Sal, it was my uncle Max or uncle mackie as we use to call him. He was the lovliest man. He gave me for my 21st birthday a pair of 9ct gold loop earings and u know I still wear them to this day.

I love u uncle...RIP...Hope all the pain and suffering has gone, may u and nanna look after one another xxoo

Life absolutely sux!!!

My dear gorgeous uncle is dying and there is nothing anybody can do about it, and I hate the fact that there are all these shit heads in out jails and on our streets breathing perfectly good air and don't deserve to live. Here is my happy go lucky uncle just waiting to die. He has been in Austin Hospital and today he was moved into palative care, this is where patients go to be kept comfortable but will die. Last friday they took him off all his medication, so now we're just waiting to hear the bad news. He would be frigging mad if he knew what state he was in, he would probably just get a shot gun and take his own life. He just wants to go home but don't think he realises he will never go home again.

He had cancer, so had to take his voice box out so he can't talk, so he was writing everything down, but now he's lost that, we think he's had a lack of oxygen to the brain and that's affected him also. I went and saw him today and he said to me he wants to go home, I red his lips, but he was all over the place, I said to the nurse he needs something, maybe for the pain and some form of sedation, so he can rest as he gets very agitated.

This is why life sucks, and not only that just gone 3months since I lost my nanna, the most beautiful person in the world, so 2 beautiful people in my life taken from us and in a very short space of time, so I hate life at the moment. Why is life so cruel, my uncle is only 69 years young and my gorgeous nanna was 87 but extrememly young at heart.

Nanna I miss you so much, life will never be the same without you. I love you. RIP...